let's set fire.

you started it, but i will always get burn.
suffocating with cannabis the sweetheart boy, we won't ever leave this place. and i'll love you, every night more than the night before, and yes, it hurts, and yes, it will always hurt. and it's not like i want it to be over, i just want you too much. but you are too confused to keep one girl, aren't you? i'm being crushed by my own blind hope.
all the drugs that i didn't take
all the hearts that i didn't break
won't make the difference, but for one moment it turned oh so safe.

i am the the pieces of my broken heart dared to love. i am crushed crushed crushed. this is how close to each other we can get, we delete as applicable. maybe i should be careless about you and let the river go free like it always did.

at least i saw it coming.-

Soy más tuya que tú de mi.

you're breaking my heart, man.

over the past few months, it seems i've been sending out quite a pointless message. for a second i thought i meant something more than another doll in your love store's showcase.
it took me a while to finally accept that i am something you don't wanna think of. i am something you don't want. i'm everything you don't want. so now i see why it felt so much like a fairytale. but this is reality and these tears are justified tonight.
i like to think about you, though. you're so good at it and gave it to me just the way i like it. the smell of your skin. the amazing feeling like i could spend the rest of my days resting on your chest listening to your breathing. i wish you knew how nice you look when you sleep.

sunrise was never brighter.

can i meet you later? take you to the riverside, have a few party times, it will feel so right, honey. we'll walk into woods.
you can throw all your emotions out on my devotion while i write a list of all the things you did that made me smile.


i can't write.
it's always about him,
and he is not here anymore.
[was he ever?]

would i be out of line if i say i miss you?

what a crazy crazy feeling.

i've tried too many times to go away. after all, away is the only place i can stand myself in. i thought that maybe you would find your way there and take me back. but i'm still here without you and somewhow i can't stop waiting for you. i know i've could have done things differently holding myself from doing what i needed. i'm stuck. i didn't want it to get to an end but i barely can stand myself again. it's always easy to give in, specially when this feels like a dream to me. i wish it was real though. would you take a chance then? i'm putting myself out there, you know? i don't even know where i'm coming from, your face is looking less familiar every passing day and it's killing me. i can't focus, every little thing reminds me of you somehow. i have no strengh when it comes to let you go. here's where i should start considering to erase you completely. it happens at times like these, i seem a little far from the world. i don't much like waiting, would you come along? you found out all the things that could possibly win my heart, i don't think you were even trying. it's in your blood, your scent, your voice to keep me moving on.

if i had anything left to give i'd give it to you in a heartbeat. i hope i could find my way to your arms again. i'm sending this message out my window. i'm gonna let my body hit the floor for a last time, and may my heart stop pumping, and my love run out, but i'll remember the last moment i had you just like if it had been happening last night. when you are beside me everything bad fades away. i would give anything for having that feeling again. hold your hand next to my heart and stay there. this may be nostalgic, but nobody has ever kissed me like he does and i don’t think anybody will, cause when you kiss me you make me float on a cloud and set my mind back to zero. no images, no memories, no voices, no music, just the beating of a not-so-broken-anymore heart.

can't you see that you took everything away from me? just say the word and i'll be there. it's and offer i wouldn't dare to reject. would you? you slide right through me like no one ever before.

i want to see this as an introduction to better days, not like a failed mission. fate is fresh paper and you're my motherfucker ink.

my love speaks softly when i really love. i am what i am, but above all of what i truly am, i am what you are to me. there are dreams beyond these thoughts and words. i want you at the end of my road, being there to catch me when i fall. my mood seems to change when i take a big breath, but stars still melt off from my night sky vision.

what a crazy crazy feeling.