let's set fire.

you started it, but i will always get burn.
suffocating with cannabis the sweetheart boy, we won't ever leave this place. and i'll love you, every night more than the night before, and yes, it hurts, and yes, it will always hurt. and it's not like i want it to be over, i just want you too much. but you are too confused to keep one girl, aren't you? i'm being crushed by my own blind hope.
all the drugs that i didn't take
all the hearts that i didn't break
won't make the difference, but for one moment it turned oh so safe.

i am the the pieces of my broken heart dared to love. i am crushed crushed crushed. this is how close to each other we can get, we delete as applicable. maybe i should be careless about you and let the river go free like it always did.

at least i saw it coming.-

Soy más tuya que tú de mi.

you're breaking my heart, man.

over the past few months, it seems i've been sending out quite a pointless message. for a second i thought i meant something more than another doll in your love store's showcase.
it took me a while to finally accept that i am something you don't wanna think of. i am something you don't want. i'm everything you don't want. so now i see why it felt so much like a fairytale. but this is reality and these tears are justified tonight.
i like to think about you, though. you're so good at it and gave it to me just the way i like it. the smell of your skin. the amazing feeling like i could spend the rest of my days resting on your chest listening to your breathing. i wish you knew how nice you look when you sleep.

sunrise was never brighter.

can i meet you later? take you to the riverside, have a few party times, it will feel so right, honey. we'll walk into woods.
you can throw all your emotions out on my devotion while i write a list of all the things you did that made me smile.


i can't write.
it's always about him,
and he is not here anymore.
[was he ever?]

would i be out of line if i say i miss you?

what a crazy crazy feeling.

i've tried too many times to go away. after all, away is the only place i can stand myself in. i thought that maybe you would find your way there and take me back. but i'm still here without you and somewhow i can't stop waiting for you. i know i've could have done things differently holding myself from doing what i needed. i'm stuck. i didn't want it to get to an end but i barely can stand myself again. it's always easy to give in, specially when this feels like a dream to me. i wish it was real though. would you take a chance then? i'm putting myself out there, you know? i don't even know where i'm coming from, your face is looking less familiar every passing day and it's killing me. i can't focus, every little thing reminds me of you somehow. i have no strengh when it comes to let you go. here's where i should start considering to erase you completely. it happens at times like these, i seem a little far from the world. i don't much like waiting, would you come along? you found out all the things that could possibly win my heart, i don't think you were even trying. it's in your blood, your scent, your voice to keep me moving on.

if i had anything left to give i'd give it to you in a heartbeat. i hope i could find my way to your arms again. i'm sending this message out my window. i'm gonna let my body hit the floor for a last time, and may my heart stop pumping, and my love run out, but i'll remember the last moment i had you just like if it had been happening last night. when you are beside me everything bad fades away. i would give anything for having that feeling again. hold your hand next to my heart and stay there. this may be nostalgic, but nobody has ever kissed me like he does and i don’t think anybody will, cause when you kiss me you make me float on a cloud and set my mind back to zero. no images, no memories, no voices, no music, just the beating of a not-so-broken-anymore heart.

can't you see that you took everything away from me? just say the word and i'll be there. it's and offer i wouldn't dare to reject. would you? you slide right through me like no one ever before.

i want to see this as an introduction to better days, not like a failed mission. fate is fresh paper and you're my motherfucker ink.

my love speaks softly when i really love. i am what i am, but above all of what i truly am, i am what you are to me. there are dreams beyond these thoughts and words. i want you at the end of my road, being there to catch me when i fall. my mood seems to change when i take a big breath, but stars still melt off from my night sky vision.

what a crazy crazy feeling.

if i could hear you, what noise would you be to me?

why do i get hurt then. my chest is screaming tears out wishing i could take back time.

what if you're hurting someone, just to see what they look like when they're broken?

i have no one to blame but myself for wanting to give him everything.

i can only blame myself for letting him do this to me.

i'm too low to be angry right now.

would you let me color your pictures?

i'm moving in slow motion each second without you cause when you're around time goes by so fast.

slow down a little.

you speak and all the fireflies in the world burn inside of me.

when your voice goes down with a whisper.

i can't tell if you're true or a dream.

i wish my brain would stop racing. i don't wanna fall apart. i don't want to ever wake up in someone else's arms.

i sigh.

my heart and mind are protecting me from further loss, so this state will be temporary.

i hate the feeling of getting fragmented.

something old, new, borrowed, blue.

i remember the days before you left sometimes. toes on the sand. pictures of us kissing. you stealing flowers from people's gardens, you singing to Jeff Buckley's, giving me funny nicknames and all that awesome things you used to do.

but then i get back from my insides. and remember why you actually left.

you see, when you think about the people in your past, and what a big part of your life they still are, you think only about the good parts. you seem to forget for an instance what got your apart in the first place. so that happens when you get back together. you think you won the big prize, but then you realize there are no many things keeping you closer to one another. eventually all the fucked up shit that i hate about you would come up and i'd be sorry i ever trusted you again.

your body sleeping on my bed and the wind touching your hair was quite a sight, though.

to be honest, i love the fact that you're not around anymore. i learnt so much while being with you, so i can't say you were a waste of time, but this is me, falling out of love and i have a huge smile on my face.

you say you don't know how to forget. i say i had a tough time doing it myself as well. this always fighting love, kind of got the best of me. you dropped me into the highways of the stars, stars i found in the dark corners of your green eyes. you got to parts of me that were naive and ready to bloom, but i’ve been conscious and raging for a while, so i often think how fucked up we were back then. you keep trying to touch me like wanting something more, trying to show me how lovely it could be. but man, i'm untouchable.

dreams just come to me. they grab me and twist my eyes like i'm following a kite and rip me like dry tree branches. dreams are dark holes not even gravity allows me into. if you keep your eyes open for two more minutes, you'll see you don't know who this girl is, why you love her, and why you hold her like you knew you just lost her for good.